2006
Tonight I miss my family with fierce passion. My Kenzie is asleep..hopefully. My husband in Kansas, called in at both his New Year and my own – with respect to the two hour time difference. I am alone on New Year's Eve with my pets. All I did today was jog, spend time at the mall, do some crafting, watch some Lifetime TV movies, and feel mind-numbingly “wrong.”
I think of the past year. I’m amazed that it finds me here. Alone.
Stepping outside I can hear the sound of affectionate conversations echoing through my neighborhood. Other people are now singing. There is dancing and firecrackers.
Their happiness almost seems surreal to me.
Kenzie’s great grandpa, my paternal grandfather, passed away today. Kenzie never got a chance to meet him. In hindsight, I feel really bad about that. I hope the New Year brings profound changes in our lives so that not only can we be together...but happy and better able to celebrate family.
Today is a beginning of a new year, yet the ending of a life. It’s hard to wrap my mind around.....
posted by Stacy @ 4:25 AM
1 Comments:
I am sorry to hear about your loss and your lonliness in the new this new year. It will not be long I hope before your family is back together as it should be. Try to relish in this alone time as hard as that may seem. Get yourself prepared for the upcoming year that I am sure will bring many good things to you.
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